Quote of the Day: Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself; I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn’t arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I’m going to be happy about it. Groucho Marx
Exercise Log: Today Mary with Maggie in stroller, Joe and I started walking in Park City. We love to pass the big Bear that is in the Sundance area right by our condo. Maggie is very proud of herself because it no longer frightens her beyond measure! We walked 3.60 (-3.65) Next week will have to be my catch-up week. Joe and Maggie turned around and Mary and I did some hills. I could really feel how difficult the hills were today but we persevered. I love walking with Mary. She is very insightful at such a young age.
Last night we stayed in Park City. It is great to get away. Nate, Mary and girls arrived around 8 P.M. after Easter egg coloring w/ their friends. Maggie was so tired that we read books immediately and then she went to bed. She loves to get up in the morning, climb to the top floor of the condo, and climb in bed w/ us which really is our favorite thing. She has this tiny face that cuddles under the blanket and she can talk like no tomorrow! At 5:50 A.M., I heard the sound of feet making their way up two sets of stairs- really quite the travel route for a 3 year old. She never went back to sleep so we knew that by nightfall, she would be tired! Later that morning, she found the hidden Easter baskets for she and Kate. Maggie’s contained Repunzel Barbies- Tangled and Flynn Ryder. When she saw her basket, she got so excited, she exclaimed “Oh, Eugene!” You’d have to see the show to understand! Kate was thrilled with her remote control toy!
For Joe’s birthday celebration on Saturday, we all went bowling which included pizza in Park City. We had a great time, but I was so nervous about all the people and germs I could be contracting. I washed my hands a million times. Nonetheless, I loved being with my family and all of us laughing together. I am so grateful for this family that Joe and I have built together. They mean everything to me. I remember hearing Dr. Laura say something like you can’t change the family you grew up in, but you can do your best with the children and relationships you have guardianship over and I have always been comforted by that. Our children come first for us and we have always had their best interest at heart. That is probably the thing I am most proud of. I hope my children know that I would do anything for their good and I plan to be there when they need me.
I keep thinking of how daunting this news of the BRCA 1 Gene is for my sisters. Meeting w/ the genetic counselor on Friday was good, not because it changed my decision about what surgical procedures I will have to have done, but because it made me realize the heartache and stress to all my siblings (and children) who will be taking this test and finding out results that could change their lives. What a scary gene to have in your family. What a hard thing to face as a young person. I already have cancer, so taking any other body parts away is, yes, significant, but I am resigned to that future. But when you’re 25 or 30, this consideration needs to be well counseled and worked through. This isn’t information that can be ignored.
One of the most frustrating things for me with this cancer, is that I can’t do all the errands and take care of the house like I would like to. Joe’s birthday is tomorrow, and I have hardly been shopping and I felt really bad about not making him a cake. So, John and Carol Skeen, show up as we were ready to leave for PC with the most beautiful cake! When I think of the Skeens, I am touched w/ tears. Everyone should have a Carol and John in their lives. They are the most caring people I know.
Carol Evans and Kristen Iverson brought over the best dinner. I needed the protein- it was chicken breast, fruit, vegetable salad w/ lime juice and quinoe (sp)., bran muffins. I’m going to have to share the recipe for the vegetable salad. It tasted so…good. Thanks for the card, Dian McLane.
Mike, Elle and Kate at bowling alley
Children break beyond barriers! Maggie insisting on wearing scarf because I have one!