Quote of the Day: “Having the world’s best idea will do you no good unless you act on it. People who want milk shouldn’t sit on a stool in the middle of a field in hopes that a cow will back up to them.” Curtis Grant
This quote so reminds me of how I want life to just come to me, how I want all things good to just fall in place. I have been very fortunate to have things go my way so many times in life. I think we sometimes only notice the times when situations don’t seem to go the way we want or think they should. Instead, we don’t even recognize or notice when good things occur- we expect it to go well and it does. But as I am healing, getting stronger and feeling less insecure about the future- I’m actually making decisions as if the future includes me in it. After the Service Scholar banquet at Skyline, I had this strong urge to return to Skyline. I realized that I really missed the relationships with the students and that I really love teaching so one morning I woke up and e-mailed the principal and offered that I would teach the class again. Weeks went by with no reply from him so while we were in Hawaii I sent him an e-mail just asking what he thought about my idea. I had become anxious about putting that offer out there- on one hand I still thought it was a good idea but on the other hand, I wasn’t so sure I really wanted to return. I got his reply a few days later explaining that the teacher who took the classes this year decided that she would give it a try again. I was relieved and a little disappointed. Mostly, I think it’s a good process that makes you really understand what would be good for your life at this time. My friend Patti, reminded me of something though, I was remembering the things I loved about the job but had forgotten the parts that were frustrating.
Don’t get me wrong- I love my free time. I love spending time with my granddaughters, I love being able to wake up early to run and get my exercise in. I love playing tennis every day and I love that I have time to work on piano and scrapbook and yard work but I miss having my mind stimulated with ideas and theories and I love solving problems in life and confronting them head on. So in a way, I am in a “limbo” stage trying to get my life to order so that I can partake of all life’s great opportunities. One thing I immediately noticed when the principal told me that the position was full- this opened the door to try a new career. All the sudden, it was like someone had given me permission to believe that a new path was the way to go. I am one who doesn’t rest easy unless things are the way I want them to be. It’s a curse really, but it’s also a motivating factor. So here I am, wondering what the future will bring for me, how I will find fulfillment in my life and whether or not I will notice when the time comes to make the right decision for me.
I have been reading The Charisma Myth by Olivia Fox Cabane and one part that really stuck with me is that she said people react one of two ways to adversity in their lives. They either say “That is unfair” or “That is unfortunate”. I contemplated this concept, thinking about people I know who think life is unfair and how they conduct their lives- usually with self-pity and resignation. On the flip side, people who think that what’s happened to them is unfortunate believe they have some control over the next step. They aren’t destined to a life of unhappiness and despair- their actions can actually change their situation, that hard work and guts will eventually pay off for them.
So I want to be part of the “That is unfortunate” group because I do believe that when one door closes, another door opens.
Kauai- 2012 Sunset at our beach!
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