Quote of the Day: “Be on the lookout for mercies. The more we look for them, the more of them we will see… Better to lose count while naming your blessings than to lose your blessings to counting your troubles. Maltbie D. Babcock
Sue B. stopped over with this wonderful dragonfly etched on pottery. She said she saw it and had to get it. I’m so glad the dragonfly was Jami’s symbol of hope and passed on to me because there are an amazingly number of artsy pieces with dragonflies. On Saturday, I was out watering the flowers when one lone dragonfly came circling around me. I just took it as another symbol that Lynne is happy and well!
My running friends met me today to walk and give me this wonderful lantern with a plant inside. It has all these beautiful qualities; you can see through it, something lovely is growing inside, there’s a door with a latch to be opened or closed. Joe came to the door because he heard us all talking and took it inside. When I got home, Joe had put it on the counter and I realized that was exactly where it needed to be. It looked fabulous right on the counter and gave the room a feeling, maybe a sense of peace. My friends have been such an amazing support to me- I don’t know where I would be without them. There is a Grand Canyon adventure planned for the middle of October and as I was listening to the planning of the trip; who would be going, where they’ll be staying and other logistics- I’ll be recovering from surgery at that time- I couldn’t help but feel sorry for myself that all this was happening to me. That everyone else could go on with life but for me the forecast looks like a continual torrential downpour. It’s at that point that I tell myself to not focus on what you don’t know, we can’t predict the future, you might yet have your time to shine in the sun, and just keep busy, keep doing what you know you must and pretty soon you’ll be walking out of the rain into the sunshine.
Susie came all the way in from Pepperwood to run with me this week and we talked about how really I should be depressed- I realize I certainly am a strong candidate. She sent me these powerful words: “I love you so much Joanie girl. Be strong this week, I’ll be praying for you! and then “There is nothing you can NOT do. It’s mile 25 baby, and it’s ok to ask if the Lord is playing mind games with ya!” This just made me laugh. Years ago, Susie and I were running the Park City Marathon and somehow had missed seeing the 24 mile marker which was mentally exhausting. We got to mile 25 and I must have been disoriented, I certainly wasn’t very nice when I asked the poor volunteer, who, by the way, had probably been standing in the cold all morning to hand the runners a cup of water. Anyway, I said to her: “Are you playing mind games with us?” Susie and I have laughed about that for years. It really was a low moment and perhaps the reason I’m being punished in life right now. Just kidding, I don’t really believe that but I do know depression is serious and that’s why I am keeping busy. So if you know that I am cleaning my house in a sort of frenzie, watch out closets, or that I am taking it out on my yard, watch out bushes, you will understand that this is my way of trying to make sense of my world, certainly trying to make it out of the tunnel and into the light without going crazy or losing too much of my former, carefree self.
Joe, Joanie and Alex- Wasatch Crest Trail
Flowers on the trail- Western Groundsel?
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