Quote of the Day: “The pinnacle virtue of love…is the virtue that may come at the greatest price. It requires subjugation of pride to humility, selfishness to service, and greed to generosity. K. Newell Dayley
Exercise Log: On Sunday, I walked with Lynne’s friend from way back, Shelley. We walked through Holladay- I was glad we were able to connect. Monday, Sue O., Patti, Denise, and I walked around the cove 5.48 miles. Sue and I ran some of the way and it felt great to run. I only ran about 1/2 mile but I could feel my legs the next day. Tuesday, Jen, Patti, Lori, Jill, Cokie and I met at the Rite Aid in Holladay and walked through the Cottonwood Lane/ Walker Lane area.
I received lovely cards from Carol Young- I so appreciate the words- and my sister, Taylor, who wrote the kindest things. We have such a bond since we both have this gene. I’m so proud of the way she has handled the whole BRCA situation. She is amazing and understands how important her life is- I love that children help you to realize that also.
Monday was a pivotal day for me because I started playing tennis again. My Monday girls- Donna, Cokie and Sue have left this spot open for me. I have taken recesses due to surgeries and teaching, but they always allow me to come back in. They make me feel like it’s my spot and no one else can fill it. It’s my favorite tennis because we have so much fun together. I really didn’t know how I’d play and was a bit nervous but my shots came back. Serve is still a bit weak because of the surgeries so I just do two second serves. Yesterday was a starting point for me with running and tennis-two favorites of mine. I may have been able to play tennis during some of the better times in chemo but it seemed too much to start and stop again and again. I realized though, that in some ways, I didn’t allow myself to really enjoy all the things I love about life during chemo- maybe the walking was all I could muster physically, but I couldn’t help but reflect yesterday that somehow I gave into this martyr attitude. I know it sounds odd, and I’m trying to understand it while I’m typing but I think so much is taken away from you when you have to restructure your life to fit in all the doctor’s appointments, surgeries and chemo that you don’t allow yourself the luxury of enjoying some of the things you did before. Maybe it’s this fear that you will never get to enjoy them like you did before so you just don’t participate in them at all. You get to a point where you don’t think that anything positive is going to come your way and that mindset surprises you when things do start to become positive again. Perhaps we forget too soon what life was like in the past. I think I was afraid to really enjoy myself, that others could enjoy life but not me. Yesterday, though, I started to live again.
My tennis girls: Donna, Joanie, Sue, Cokie
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